Wednesday, 7 July 2010

as a coot

Well, as you may have heard, my hair finally fell out. I started off by having a very short 0.5 graded 'buzz cut', but that soon started to look patchy and, well, cancer-like.

So yesterday I took the plunge and did the proper thing ... it all came off.

I'm now looking somewhere between Shootings Star's 'George Doors', poisoned Russian spy Alexander Litvinenko, Tim Roth in 'Made in Britain' and a coot. Which are apparently very bald.

I guess this is no time for vanity but after looking through photos from last Summers' diving trip - where I was tanned, healthy and with hair - I cannot help but think 'Jesus Christ, what the hell happened here?'.

However, I am grateful that I'm not a female - that must truely be devastating. I can laugh at myself and get away with looking like this quite easily around these parts, but it seriously must be heart-breaking for women to lose their hair in this way.

Apart from the hair-loss, I'm feeling 'OK' although I've just had a very rough night with 'tummy issues', which I won't go into here. The new R-Chop regime is easier on me overall, but still comes with its up's and down's ... but overall, I'm pleased with the progress and compared to how I was with AVDB treatment and to how rough I felt when I was recovering from my operation, I cannot complain.

I'm writing shite today - I'm tired and nothing is flowing very well, so will sign off now, with a self-taken snapshot via a bathroom mirror.

Slaphead x


Simon said...

Sorry, I'm all confused.

Which one is you?

Rachel said...

i think you look good. Some people have bobbly heads but yours looks quite smooth... ;-)

Anonymous said...

About 20 years ago, folks realized how much hair is on a man's head has nothing to do with how attractive he is. What a revelation after the 80's big hair spray days. There's a reason about 1/3 of all straight male porn stars shave their head.

In your case, you've associated hairloss with your illness, so it's perfectly natural to want it back badly or to view yourself as unattractive because of it; you'd like your life to get back to normal as quickly as possible. Just human nature.

If you lost yours slowly through genetics, it would give you time to get used to the idea, whereas with cancer treatment I can imagine it feels all too immediate.

Bodhi said...

Awww, sweetie, you still look adorable :-)